wednesday.irwan came over to pass his pretty blue ipod.songs.today's friday.shopping with family.udx went shopping with his family too hees.well i pretty much got all the things i wanted.faris's holga will be with me for now.get the film.take it to the park.snap snap.udx's going on a vacation from tomorrow till tuesday.have a safe trip peanut.i love you.excuse me sarah.olevels in less than a year.picture the examination hall and the awkward silence.students killing all their brain cells.

21:12:12 our first anniversary♥
luvrings.luvkites.luvtees.luvday.luvbirds.
homebaked blueberry muffins and brownies.

lying down while flying the kite.

pictures.videos.laughters.screaming.love.

kite runners.sengkang.chase.muddy fields.worth it.

twenty-one hearts for you my dear rusydi rashid.
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heavy with resentment.

a day with cherry and the park.

i hope that's enough to make me feel better.

hi friends.dad bought me a pet hamster two days ago.a female one.i named it cherry.lazy one.i wonder whether she procrastinates like me.i went shopping with mom today.happy feet.great escape with udx tomorrow.breakfast kites bubbles.will be buying school books on wednesday with udx.hehe.i love you.thursday's the picnic day for all the four lovebirds.awesome.bonding time.there'll be alot to talk about.sleepover with the girls next week.my place.happy times.

tretetet.i'm back from wherever i was for the past few days.i would like to announce that i miss fieshy amai sha tremendously.we'll meet soon.fie sup sup eh okay.i'll be meeting udxie tomorrow.our great escape.sarax and udx.recordings.let's look forward to tomorrow.i'll bring along my blue umbrella just in case.my cupcake socks and lion knickers from topshop.annoyingly cute.i miss having the feel good factor with udx and fiesh.my dad's telling a joke and it's hilarious.my tummy hurts.i choked on my own saliva while laughing justnow.hell.bummer.zzz.bubblegums for you!

down with fever but i'm fine now.udx came to visit me in the afternoon.thanks for preparing lunch for me sugar.he had hot chocolate while i had hot tea.he played the guitar and i sang along.tv and lappie.played online games.sweet day today.i love you.i'll be on vacation from tomorrow till sunday.hehehu.i'll be renovating my bedroom soon.new wallpaper and theme.warm lights.will be looking forward to a new look.the sky's crying and i love it.and pardon my language in my previous post.it's obvious that i was fucked up aye.that's the first time i posted something like that.haha.

it's like i'm reading my own posts. betol tak betol fie? it was never a coincidence after all.

i'll be waiting for the time when it gets bloody obvious. you know i can be one hell of a bitch when it comes to this.

sarax and udx.fieshy and fiqqy.amai and dani.sha and freeze.the activities we have all planned out since mid of this year will finally be carried out this month.the beach.movies.picnics.lunch.the past months weren't really a good one for all of us.especially for udx and i.but now that its all over and everything's fine,we'll make all those activities happen.happy people.sweet escape with udx tomorrow.lakeside to punggol.caramel popcorn again.paranormal activity.jennifer's body.kfc.no more mathematics.just simple sums.winkywinky.slaps again?ridiculously hilarious.i lvoe uyo.

early in the morning.wake up to a bright blue sky.no lightning to break the day down and make it ugly.quick breakfast with udx at the park.bread with nutella.red and blue balloons.thanks luv.lunch with mom and brother.teehees.fetched amai at the airport yesterday with the rest.her mom treated each and every one of us macs.and aidil got a double choc.mintak aidil mintak.oh you know someterms.trained back.dad fetched shah and i from jurong east.balik ke pangkal jalan.just realised aidil's showing the finger in the pic above.and oh,hi.killing is a good hobby eh firdaus.cih.haha.happy tak?

it was a rainy day.an afternoon with fiesh and nads.my sister's keeper.nail polish.youtube.reggae songs.took pictures using webcam.our faces were priceless.especially nad's.more on facebook.had lunch at 399.umbrella was put to use as usual.lemon chicken rice.root beer.nutella waffle.eighteenth floor.we shared secrets.nad's confessions.the difference in sizes.the pathetic one.haha.and oh,is anyone wondering who's taking the first two pictures above?it wasnt set to self-timer.there wasn't anyone else except us.examine them.go figure.hahaha.sometimes.i can't wait for tomorrow.swensens and movie date with udx.a treat from him.lovelove loh!

udx day.popcorn chicken fishballs caramel popcorn fried chicken.mathematics.again fifty stations altogether to and fro.plugged in to playradioplay's songs with him.dozed off.my november's schedule is fucking packed.its all red.december's empty.haha kambing.yesterdays archery was awesome.bowling tomorrow.then thursday a day with fiesh.then friday swensens and movie date.then next monday and tuesday with nanoi.ah then ah then ah.kepale otak kau.bye.i love udx.amai come back quick.sabah aje.oh you know,someterms.aidil!shah!fiesh!amai!sha!

my pretty pink light.it's very pretty.it lightens up a corner of my room.i had horlicks 3-in-1 for breakfast justnow.cereal-like.nom nom nom.yesterday's great escape with udx was simple yet fun.lunch treat and headbands.thanks luv.cut my fringe recently.cut it myself.no,not out of frustration or whatsoever.haha.fiesh and i look very different now.she didnt cut her fringe though.she did something beyond anyone's imagination.oh sometimes.amai's leaving for obs camp at sabah this saturday.taik loh.maybe sending her off at the airport with the rest.twelve days eh amai.bodo pe?haha.mane boleh.

sweet escape.mathematics.danced to muse songs.sang to the early november songs.stix by the window.cherryade and blue cups.mom's fried rice.fifty stations altogether to and fro.plugged in to good music and signed in msn messenger using phone while reading a book titled veronika decides to die by paul coelho.worth every minute.for the first time in a long time,i am satisfied with where i am in life.smile.love.have a safe trip udx :]

to a frenemy.i thought you'd understand.i thought i could count on you.i thought you'd try to talk things out with your friend on behalf of me.i just thought.you proved me wrong.you pushed all the blame to me.you totally sided your friend without even sparing a thought for me.accused me when i did nothing wrong.get your facts right.how could you?

i havent got over what happened in the train yesterday with you.i still remember every single part vividly.how can i possibly forget something so unexpected and uncalled for?looking on the brightside.it has been raining heavily for the past few days.love it.completed the day with a feel good factor.sorry fiesh.someterms.and oh,im sad now.haha.no seriously.im sad.wonder why im up this early?haha.i had a long cold bath and ate alot of chocolates.haha.fucking sad loh.

bestfriends day out.cloudy with a chance of meatballs.left the theatre with a cramped ass and aching leg.our plan to go shopping for new stuffs didnt work out cos we're lazy to walk around.we bought ben & jerry's ice cream instead and went to the sky park to sit around.we're straight so that doesnt matter.i brought along some coloured papers and crayons.fiesh got bitten by alot of red ants but i didnt.haha ambek kau.sometimes.we took pictures like how all best girl friends do.maybe not all.aik.sometimes eh fie.school tomorrow.taik.excuse me.i miss amai and sha.

fiesheye.you are not alone.i will always be there for you.we've gone through the thick and the thin together and up till now,we still will.seeing you cry just breaks me.we were not ourselves justnow.uncontrollable emotions.the news for you that amai said adds more to the devastation.i felt like kicking and pushing everything thats around me.we didnt care about the people around us.you will make it fiesh.you will.if you wont make it neither would i.

playing with our class visualizer managed to cheer us up.we made it look like a webcam.our faces appeared on the screen.we expressed our feelings and even managed to slot in some of ris low's speech in.that made our classmates laugh and that made fiesh and i smile.we were happy at that moment.taking pics with the visualizer.zooming in and out.laughing.smiling.we'll be mentally and emotionally prepared for anything.i love you fieshy.

aidil.we know how you feel.be strong and mentally prepared for anything.for now we can only hope for the best.whatever it is,wherever we go,we'll always be there for each other.if you need a hug or anything,just ask for it and we'll be there with arms open wide for you.free hugs for the six of us.love ya aidil.

i shan't elaborate on what happened earlier this morning.all i know is that it killed my mood big time.zzz.ive still got a malay project to work on.ive yet to finish reading that killer malay novel.jendela hati.to think that i still have 307 more pages to go just kills me - mentally and emotionally.i shall procrastinate.mom cooked spaghetti with mussels for dinner yesternight haha.it was kesedapan.im not ready to do script checking tomorrow.damn.i recalled david jerking at the door during d&t.he was the joke of the day.the d&t students were making fun of him.pity him though.haha babi sia.oops excuse me.and hoi nye!i've got my nokia E63 already.happy sarax.dont worry fiesh.i wont react like last year.friends forever.

blue bag made me feel so tensed this morning.felt so nervous when i stepped on the parade square ground to assemble.amai could see my cheeks burning.i could feel my cheeks boiling.i was self-conscious.amai's cereal bar managed to cool me down though.apart from staring at fiesh's neck and making her feel uneasy,school was shit.lunch at ljs with fiesh and amai after school.dropped by nanoi's house after that.then pure caramel with irwan.i'll be going off somewhere far away from tomorrow afternoon till monday.haha.everythings so fucked now dont you think so? :)

friends week.all the afternoons were spent together at macs mugging.all the nights were spent together at taman jurong mugging.changi airport.jurong east library.feel good factor here and there.my birthday was a great one.afternoon surprise by amai fiesh sha shah and aidil.they managed to make me cry tears of joy.night surprise by hafiz and hamirul.thanks for the schoolbag and pencil case to the both of you.udx left a gift at my doorstep at night,a day before my birthday :) im lazy to put up the pictures.yea okay.webcam sessions.my birthday.night at taman jurong.